its enough

so its thanks giving...and i was just thinking about it....i have so many things to be thankful for...i know this sounds like the tipical "thanksgiving post"....but its the truth....screw the fact that it is thanksgiving weekend...it could be anyday and i still should remember to be thankful...but that fact is... that in this busy life that we lead...thankfulness is just one extra thing we have to remember and its easily the first thing that we leave behind when we are running through the door with our coffees and 50 pound backpacks...but thankfulness i think is such a vital part in life that I know i am forgetting all the time....i get so many things..everyday...i get food to eat...and not just any food, but food that i like....i get nice clothes...and bed and my own room!...i have a family and live with both my parents...but most of all i got to get up this morning...i got to take a breath this morning....i get the chance to live one more day...i get to make one more person smile...give one more hug...pray for someone...and hopefully make another effort to love on my broken generation..and that is so special.....and i dont want to sound spiritual and goodie goodie...but thats my heart...i dont want my life to go on...i dont want it to live one more day unless i know that i am going to touch someone....or that Gods breath is what i'm going to breathe...for to long i lived for me...and i lived scraping to get by for ME....but God wants me to sacrifice ME...so that i can focus on hearing and responding to the cries of my desparate generation...and HE will supply all MY needs...while i am helping to supply for others...whether thats a hug or a prayer...or just to sit and listen......i know that i am going to fail..andi know that i am going to be selfish sometimes and i am going focus on me....but i also know that my daddy will be there to help get back on my misson...i am striving to be that someone that when people see me that they dont see Rachelle but they see Jesus and that Rachelle would be just a vessel..a chanel for Gods love...NOT the vocal point..and reason...i want HIM to have all the Glory....its enough glory for me just in the fact that He wants to use me...

Thank you so much Daddy...for choosing me....for this time and for this season....forgive me for i have failed and i know that i am not worthy of your love and forgivness...but for some reason you keep telling me that i am..over and over..i want to believe it with all my heart...i really do....so that i can be one with you...and so that we can touch many lives together..you and me...hand in hand...i want to live a life with purpose...that would not just take up space....but that i will be great in you....i want to try....cause you believe in me...and you always tell me that your a proud daddy of your little gurl....and that is enough, thats enough..to fight every battle and trail....i love you so much........HAPPY TURKEY DAY GOD!!... :)