brokeness..

i have this brokeness....but its not a bad broken but a good one....my spirit has been laying low these last few days...and i have felt this dark depth....(but i havent been afraid of it which is a change :)...but God showed me that the dark low feeling that i am in right now....is what my friends feel on a daily basis...and that most of thier spirits are dead or laying really low....and i was like GOD!...what can i do???...how can i bring them up??..we were talking the other day about isisah about when he comes before the throne of God and God shows isisah how un clean he really is....and i love that cause he was a prophet, supposed to be this perfect man....but when he got before the presence of God...he cried out "OH CRAP!...look at me i am not worthy".....but God told the angel to take the coal and cleanse his lips.....and right after that God asks the question...."who will go for us??" and because of Isaiah was cleansed from all his crap and was free from his own stuff.....he probably was jumping up and down like donkey from shrek!..."PICK ME, PICK ME!!!"....haha...the bible can be pretty funny sometimes...

but God connected all those things today for me.....He has shown me that in that place of brokeness God is healing my brokeness....He is taking the coal to me...and so that now when He asks me to do something...like stand in the gap for my broken gerneration or love on someone....i am going to be like donkey!!!! PICK ME PICK ME GOD!!!......i just love daddy God!...He always wants to teach us something....but let me tell you that in this broken state...its not peaches and cream...i think its a must that when God wants to change something or teach us something its going to be a struggle and its probably going to hurt....because our flesh is selfish and self lothing...but allow the coal of God to come and purge you....and watch how the crap will fall off like scales on a fish!.....